Today I'm going to the beauty salon to get my hair cut and a conditioning treatment. Ideally I'd also want my hair colored, but the grays aren't that noticable and I can't afford to spend a fortune. The stylist is expensive. I'll ask her to dry my hair straight and flat iron, which is becoming more and more of a challenge as my hair gets curlier as I age. Her haircuts are superior to those I've had from other stylists. When I used to go to her, strangers (around 5) would stop and compliment it. My hair can be one of my best physical features, or totally wild, depending on the cut. Once a French woman in a restaurant said it looked "so French". We'll see if it does again, if my curls can be tamed. I usually style it curly, which I also like. Hubby likes it straight better.

My gynecologist called me back after I spoke to her nurse for a while. Both said that it didn't sound like perimenopause. Both thought it was benzo withdrawal, which my psychiatrist doubts. They said my psychiatrist should wean me off even slower. It's always funny how often doctors disagree with each other. My gynecologist said that if my psychiatrist continues to disagree that I should go to my GP. I'll admit that since I started taking a little Ativan again (but half my most recent long-term dose) I've started to feel better in many ways. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow.

I've known my gynecologist and GP for 20 years, and my psychiatrist for 15/16. They all know me very well, and my whole medical history.