I understand what you're going through.
What helps me is just to remember that sometimes I can't trust myself even!! We are all human and make mistakes and overreact and we all think we know what's best and we all misunderstand others and we all experience hate towards one another in some form. Some people hate the haters and that's still hate.
If I focus on keeping the trust, the commitments and keep in integrity with myself I feel so much better. We never will be able to control other people but our privilege as humans is that we can understand who we are, we can think about what we are thinking about, we can make plans, we can learn to be better. Not everyone takes advantage of those privileges but you can. You can overcome hate by thinking loving thoughts, you can feel better by reflecting on what you can control and that's all that counts.
Also remember that life is 50/50 -- 50% feeling up and 50% feeling down and that's amazing because without feeling down and understanding that place, we never can feel the upside to life.
Allow yourself to be in this space and know that each person only has control over themselves. You get to decide how you get to react to each and every circumstance in your life. Truly understanding that will give you amazing power.
Sending you patience and peace...
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