I'm so good at acting, I even fool myself. I'm not happy, I'm not angry, I'm not even necessarily sad. I can still get anxious and that's about it. It's to the point where I'm purposely making myself anxious just to feel something. Meaningless sex, just to feel something. Hurting myself, just to feel something. Huh, I don't know what's going on with me. Maybe I am a psychopath.