We think CPS will dismiss the case. The last time I talked to the caseworker, she sounded like it would be dismissed, needed approval by her supervisor first though.

There is no way I could do an ED clinic, not if I want to keep our marriage together, and there is no time we could even find to go to marriage counseling. Ugh. He says he loves me, but then he puts finances all the financial worries first. And we have had financial issues so long. It is like you cannot even write the type of bad luck we've had over the years. I know we got I daughter, and she is a blessing but too young to be left on her own, and no one we know to watch her.

I will fight as much as I can to keep this together. I don't think H really wants a divorce, more like damage control for a future he sees coming and how it would impact our daughter. The problem now is that I've grown so distant from my daughter, I just don't know how to put it back together. I will suggest things we can do together, she won't want to do them, and we have no money, so that makes it even harder. Libraries around here typically do adult programs on Saturdays, not kids' and are closed on Sunday.

So I don't know what the future holds. Both H & I are so depressed. I think H might be bad enough he has clinical depression now that, yes, is highly situational, but he doesn't want to admit it. H & I were so wiped out this morning from yesterday. I still am. My whole body just wants sleep, and I will try that after posting because I am just so tired too. And yes, this financial situation has weighed so heavily upon me this entire marriage, I hate that I can't work, but I just can't. It all just sucks.