Sounds like you're doing great so far! Mine has commented a few times, "I was surprised that I didn't get an email from you" after a difficult session, so it's possible yours would say something. I've also brought it up myself, like, "I was going to email you, then I ended up [doing some other coping mechanism, like talking to a friend, posting on here, journaling, listening to music, etc.]" And he's seemed proud of me for that. Going off your other comment, I also want my T to be proud of me, and think about that sometimes when I'm exercising, like taking a walk. I think it's fine if he's your motivation for doing things right now--whatever it takes, really. And then hopefully it will become habit and/or you'll start doing that for you.