I gave up some
Of my hopes for
The relationship too.
Not just because I
Had been un-well.
It did change my
Whole out look on life
Needless to say.
It won't happen to me.
I was lazy according
To some people.
I wouldn't have a
Breakdown, if I was lazy?

18 was a very young
Age to be handed
A blow like this.
My doctor was
More Than convinced
That I could still
Do well, and even
Said I could still
Go out and have a drink.
And the doctors opinion
Was the one that mattered.
They knew I was
Not and wouldn't be
One of them,
As society would say: wasters.
Fred said if I
Joined up or went
Off to College that
We would never work
And I never felt
Like my friends
Were there for me.
So I was hesitant,
To ruin things.
When I thought
About my local college
Fred would undermine
My idea and scoff:
Anyone can apply there
Nobody ever gets rejected
Unless the course is full
And once people drop
Out the first few weeks
They ask people who missed
Out If they'd like a place
So it's a waste of time.
And you can't
Handle a stressful job
Anymore after being "there."