Thanks BCM and Artie. I'm hoping my hopefully decent writing expressiveness translate to speaking expressiveness haha. I asked her why she asked me because I was so stunned. Apparently my passion for advocacy is reeeeaaaally obvious to her. And to my local friends wow. I had friends I asked if they're interested because they've experience doing events like this and they said they're too busy and "you do it, you can do it!" which is amazing to me but also terrifying!

There's therapeutic reasons as well because of my social anxiety though she made clear she's not pressuring me. I told her it's my values vs my fears! I'm reminding myself that I've done presentations of art projects in school before in front of like 20 critical classmates when I was an older teen... It can't be as terrible as that, right?

I shot wide awake at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep due to sheer "Wtf QM??!!" anxiety and a mind churning with all my insecurities lol!