Good point. I do need to take care of me. He did say he will wait for me util I am ready, but I have no control over what my parts will do in the meantime. I don't know if they will try to get back together with him or something. I do have parts that just like to do something with him too, so it's all really confusing. I am not so sure about much in my life right now though, so I think I need to take everything out and start from scratch. I think that's what I will try to do. thanks for the advice, it really has helped me to think.