My emotional pain is so bad that is causes physical pain. This week I was barely at work with all the appointments I had to go to. My IBS came back about two years ago and now I am in the bathroom at least six times a day if not more. I don’t know every morning if I will make the drive to work without finding a bathroom. I am tired all the time and pretty much stay in bad all weekend.

My T just increased me to 3 times a week. I don’t know why because I am pretty sure she doesn’t like me. I see my pdoc every 1-2 weeks. We are changing my meds again for the one hundredth time.

My quality of life is terrible. No one should have to love like this. I think about suicide daily. Just too much of a coward to do it. Life sucks. I am having mental issues again so it makes my job difficult. I just want to check out.