I feel like talking again lol. A dorky diatribe. Hee hee. Anyway one of the things I told t last evening is that I realize now that whatever I decide to do going forward - it is by my choice. If I stay in my marriage and work on it, or not - it will be a conscious choice. This feels very empowering. Right now, in this moment, speaking my truth re: my sexuality is about knowing myself. And right now, in this moment, knowing myself is enough. It is a joyous homecoming. It is a weight lifted from my shoulders. It is no longer expending any energy hiding from myself. I give myself permission to take as much time as I need to discover what I want going forward. At some point I will have to tell h but I will not rush into it. It's all kinda brand-new and precious right now. I don't really know what is going to happen. And for once in my life, I am ok with that. Because I feel whole at last and I will be fine whatever happens. No. I will be awesome. Dorkishness over. For now.