He was in a weirdly playful mood today... Like I was talking about how I wanted to get rid of all my emotions and wants and needs and not have feelings, and he made some reference to Hal from 2001 A Space Odyssey, which I had not seen, and he laughed while explaining. It was the first time I've heard him laugh in a while because our sessions have been pretty intense and serious lately. He wasn't cracking jokes in the middle of a super serious moment, I was already kind of making fun of myself with like a "that's how it works, right?" about just getting rid of feelings.

Later when reassuring me that he didn't want "to not have to deal with me anymore" he brought up my earlier comments about how there has actually been change/"progress" and I'm handling things differently than I would have six months ago and he was like "that's kinda my gig" which got me to laugh.

There was also some self-disclosure about his personal life which is a very rare occurrence. It was at the end, he made some off handed comment about his daughter having gotten a PhD in psych.
Like to put that in perspective, I think that might be the first time he's mentioned one of his kids and he's never mentioned his wife (I only know they exist because it was in his bio).
That reminded me to ask him something I'd been curious about, why he got a PhD but is doing clinical work, like whether he originally intended to do research or got a PhD with the intent to do clinical work. He said he'd always wanted to do clinical work, but PsyDs weren't nearly as popular back when he did his PhD (a long time ago).

We did talk about some serious stuff. I'd told him in the past that I would consider it morally wrong for someone else to harm me the way I harm myself, like that no one else had the right to do that, whether or not I thought I deserved it. Today he brought up whether I'd think it was wrong for someone else to say the same things to me that I say to myself, like if he said "[Labrat] quit whining so much" and like as he was even saying it hypothetically I curled up and flinched (which he noticed and pointed out, but I think he mistook it as bristling rather than flinching because he was like "see, even as I said that you reacted").
I said I wouldn't think it was okay or right for him to say, but that wouldn't mean that I disagreed with him, and I'd take it as evidence that I was right about myself. And he was like, but wouldn't you be angry? And I said I'd be more angry that he'd sat there acting supportive while actually thinking that the entire time, and that I already struggle with trying to believe that that's not what he's thinking.
I did end up saying that even though I don't rationally believe that he thinks those things, it can still feel true. And I finally asked him whether he wishes I'd just go away (no, and that's where the "it's kinda my gig" comment happened) and whether he thought I was a bad person (he doesn't).
I wish he hadn't said that even hypothetically though. I know he'd never say that, and I know that to him it seems obvious that he'd never say something like that, but just hearing it even as a hypothetical even when I knew he didn't mean it still hurt. That's the part of the session that my brain keeps going back to.
I should probably talk to him about that on Monday :/