session today wasnt great.


t calls my dark/shadow side the wolf (I refer to myself as a wolf in sheep's clothing) and the wolf was out most of the session... I told her I didn't want her ugly face and I turned her chair all the way around to face the wall.

then after 15 seconds i turned her around again and asked for a hug and she says oh, are you sure you want a hug from me with my ugly face?

I think shes very baffled by my behavior today.

I think I'm baffled too... I don't know why, exactly I did it. I'm just familiar with the pattern.


I'm going to destroy this relationship even though I dont want to. I just feel compelled in the moment to do these things.