I'm so sorry for your terrible loss. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of losing a loved one to suicide as well as on the subject of complicated grief:

Why Losing a Loved One to Suicide Complicates Grief | After Trauma

On Grief, Loss and Coping

Suicide Can Bring a Complicated Type of Grief

What is Complicated Grief? | Mental Health Awareness

Complicated Grief Requires Attention

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My best wishes to you...