Fml and **** hurricanes. So, classes have so far been cancelled for 3 weeks at my uni. We are "tentatively" going back October 1. Somehow, though, commencement is going forward as planned. That means we somehow have to "make up" all the time that was missed, without the semester actually being extended at all. They cancelled fall break and reading day, but that's only 4 days. I am so anxious. I've been doing my best to keep up with my schoolwork, but I don't have assignments for two of my classes available. One of those is English, which I hate because I have a perpetual case of writer's block that I can't seem to break out of. Writing just makes me so anxious at this point that I become paralyzed.

The other thing that's killing me is that I haven't been able to see my T since I evacuated on 9/11. And apparently, she's going away for a vacation right when I'm planning on coming back to town - so I'll have missed seeing her for 3 weeks, too. I'm seeing my longtime T, which is lovely, but I really wish T was going to be there when I return, as the return is really stressing me out. I'm dreading it, actually. My relationship with my mother isn't great, but staying with her in my hometown, I don't feel isolated. In my new town, I feel completely alone and despairing. Although it's of course not as bad as solitary confinement, for me, it has had really devastating effects. I mean, I go for days without talking to anyone, and for weeks or even months without anyone touching me, unless I go have a random hookup. I've regressed so much and have avoided hospitalization by the skin of my teeth (and by withholding...).

Ok, that turned into a rather long rant. Sorry. Just had to get it out.