I just got in therapy for severe depression and anxiety. But I've been constantly feeling suicidal for so long and am so depressed. Nothing seems to ever help. When I'm happy it all comes crashing down. I haven't told my therapist about this, or that I've half heartedly attempted before. I don't want to end up hosptialized. I'm so tired of feeling like this though. My friends and boyfriend have also expressed their concern. My medication also doesn't seem to help. I think it may have even made things worse. I need advice on what to do...I'm so tired and cry myself to sleep every night.