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Originally Posted by seeker33
Could you please explain what you mean by this?
I'm too not sure how I'll handle this because I hate looking at myself (disgusted by my looks) and I have a history of dissociation and bad experience with meditation so I'm not too sure what "double dissociation" will do to me.
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I’m not sure if I can explain what I mean and it make sense.
Visualization has happened for me, in a visual way and an internal way.
Some things I can see and they seem and feel so real to me. It’s like I’m there and I can actually feel being there. I have experienced this by myself and with the voice leadership of my counselor.
Sometimes I can “visualize” something and I’m not really seeing it. I am “feel” seeing it. It’s an internal thing that I can’t really put words to. I have also experienced this on my own and with my counselor’s leading.
These have come on their own or “softly” in session. By softly I mean it just flowed into happening.
If he straight out asks me to visualize something, I feel a panicky feeling like I’m going to be in trouble if I can’t do it and it shuts it down.
I don’t know if that makes any sense or is of any help. It’s really hard for me to find words to explain.