Hello Me: Thanks for sharing your story here on PC. I'm sorry you had so many sad experiences. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. I see this is your first post here. So... welcome to PsychCentral!

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/coping-with-emotions/

And then here are links to 5 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that may be of interest:

Toxic Mom? Going No Contact? 5 Things You Must Realize | Knotted: The Mother-Daughter Relationship

6 Tips for Cutting Off Contact with Narcissistic Family Members

Unloved Daughters and the Shame of Estrangement | Knotted: The Mother-Daughter Relationship

10 Tips for Dealing with your Toxic Parents | Happily Imperfect

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...amily-members/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.