Are you able to be completely honest with your T about mood and thoughts of SI or SU? I still haven't figured it out. I always minimize it. Like if they ask I'd I am having the thoughts always say "nothing I wil act on" if I am having them. Later I want to kick myself. I was getting better with T because I knew how she would handle it.

A could of weeks ago after a really painful session EMDR T asked how I was doing and. I answered I will be okay. She said I know though will. Then she asked if I would be safe to drive home I told her I will be okay. When in reality I had disassociated and was still in a daze.

Then pdoc asked if I was having thoughts of SH and again I said nothing I will act in. In reality I am really struggling AMD having lots of thoughts of it and am white knuckling it. I just don't know how to tell either of them this. The reality is there is nothing they can do so what is the point. Is still will only have Emdr T once a week... but we will work in grounding techniques. Pdoc will still be scheduling out about every 6 weeks and thinks this is primarily related to the loss of T so soeant want to make any med changes.