Background: Several months ago, I had sex with someone I probably shouldn't have, but I thought I loved her and still think I do, though I don't trust myself to know. She won't talk to me. I can't see her because she lives too far away.
Issue: Most of my dreams for the past several days are of her, pregnant or telling me she "was pregnant" with my child. The dream today, when I got to nap, involved the future, and her telling me that the child playing in the park is mine, but she gave it up for adoption and I'm never allowed to know it.
I woke up covered in sweat, angry with myself, and way out of sorts. I don't know how to stop these dreams or stop the fears they've brought.
I know the lesson here is to be more careful and selective of where I place my affections, but that doesn't stop the dreams. I have an internet friend that's maybe better suited to this but I hate to lay things on her because she's dealing with too much already.