I say screw it all. I am so tired of not knowing and of having places that are triggers. I want to be well, feel well and yet I have to depend on idiots to help me. I can't be truthful. I saw a rehabilitation psychologist today and I screwed it up. I was in a place about having power to deal with my pain by using old tricks. I got rope burn from sliding down the tarzan swing. I think I passed out under the trees for hours but when I woke up I treated it as best I could and stayed invisible. I feel I need to be that way for now until the lyme is treated and I can leave this doc. I am confused. My therapist asked me questions yesterday about what I could have done different with school issues as they arrived. She indicated that I was being inappropriate in my dealings. Yes, hind sight is 20/so. I feel like dropping out.