Medications, realizing that my family loves me, not wanting to go through pain and cause further injury (I still have pain from my attempt). It now only makes "sense" to me if I was both terminal and incapacitated (though I do not really know if I would feel that way if/when this happened). I think SI can be a sign of depression or uncontrolled anxiety (I used to think about it to distract myself from unpleasant thoughts).