bluebicycle,

Thank you for the info about the memory loss. And it is very fleeting. I've still sometimes walked into a room today, forget why I'm in that room but usually then quickly remember why I went there. I've done better yesterday & today (just minor issues I've had with meds since the late 1999s when I first got on psych meds), but I set the bar pretty low on Saturday. Thanks for the reminder on forgetfulness & psychosis going together. One of my grandfathers died from Alzheimers (I was in 10th grade at the time), and I remember one of the symptoms my grandmother talked about the most in the beginning was his hallucinating with severe forgetfulness, such as thinking he was not in the U.S. but Brazil or South Africa. (He was from the Czechoslovakia originally but lived and worked all around the world before settling in the U.S.)

For now, I'm just going to hope the pdoc found the main culprit of the forgetfulness. I see the pdoc tomorrow anyway.

So far, I'm doing good with not exercising, but I think I might walk tomorrow morning. This morning I had to pick up my groceries from curbside delivery. And that is another thing. I went online to check our bank account; the credit card I use for everything (except one emergency card I will use for gas every few months) has a much lower balance than usual considering my monthly statement is generated the 2nd of each month. I think it will actually come in below budget this month, and it will be the first month I didn't overspend in ages. And there were a couple grocery items that if we have to do without them in the future, it wouldn't kill us. I'm excited though because I haven't managed to end the month on budget much less below it probably since I was in the hospital, and that doesn't really count because I was not even physically able to use my credit card for 2 weeks, on top of it being a short month (February). Otherwise, I don't remember having this low a balance near the end of the month on a card I use for everything. I even made it a pain to shop for myself on Amazon by removing my card from the site, so that I have to re-enter the info each time I order from Amazon. There are a few household things we get off Amazon, for me usually the cat litter and coffee. It is a pain, but it has stopped me from making a lot of spontaneous buys off Amazon.

Friday, I will start CBT with the therapist, I think first to work on mechanisms to cope with stress other than exercise though I also need a refresher or completely new breathing exercises to help with panic attacks. I have a lot of issues to work on, plenty to choose from.