bluebicycle, I'm so sorry. For everyone involved. I hope your friend is getting help and is still with us. It's hard to know what else to say.

Today I went to an Al-anon meeting. It was the second time I've been there. The first was a few months ago. Lately I've felt kind of numb in a way. I've isolated, too. There are many things sort of going on in my head, but I can't seem to find answers or a peace. I'm OK, but part of me is in a figurative sleep. A protective sleep.

My blog used to be my creative outlet, but I don't feel safe posting there much anymore. I feel the need for privacy and anonymity. I don't have that there anymore.

I rarely go to my Facebook page and even delete notifications. I went there today and read two posts from my aunts (not biological ones) that saddened me greatly. I de-followed them because of it. Basically they expressed views completely counter to mine, but did so in a very angry/nasty way basically calling people with my views horrible names. I'm so sick of this anger in society. People want to hate. I hate hate.