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Blueberrybook · Sep 24, 2018, 03:19 PM

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Originally Posted by BirdDancer

bluebicycle, I'm so sorry. For everyone involved. I hope your friend is getting help and is still with us. It's hard to know what else to say.

Today I went to an Al-anon meeting. It was the second time I've been there. The first was a few months ago. Lately I've felt kind of numb in a way. I've isolated, too. There are many things sort of going on in my head, but I can't seem to find answers or a peace. I'm OK, but part of me is in a figurative sleep. A protective sleep.

My blog used to be my creative outlet, but I don't feel safe posting there much anymore. I feel the need for privacy and anonymity. I don't have that there anymore.

I rarely go to my Facebook page and even delete notifications. I went there today and read two posts from my aunts (not biological ones) that saddened me greatly. I de-followed them because of it. Basically they expressed views completely counter to mine, but did so in a very angry/nasty way basically calling people with my views horrible names. I'm so sick of this anger in society. People want to hate. I hate hate.

I hope the Al-Anon meeting helped you.

So sorry your blog can't be your creative outlet any more. Maybe just write to write...I don't know. My problem is that I used to be creative, able to come up with stories and to draw, and now I can't do any of that. The meds? Time? Who knows? Something changed though. I couldn't even be creative off meds during my pregnancy (though of course, there you've got a lot of hormones going on).

I do want to de-follow my biological aunt on FB for posting stuff like that. But if I do, she'll make a big deal out of it. She's a drama queen. She'll manage to get a lot of my mom's side of the family upset because that's what she does. (At least I CAN post that she is a moron & drama queen here...)