I used to have it for a long period of time. Was obsessed with it. Almost did it once.

It's not always easy. Life's not always easy. For me it was an escape mechanism knowing that there's always a way out.

Now I look at things a bit more differently. Have no SI anymore. Even beginning to fear death again.

I changed a lot of things in my life 4 years ago and the change was good. It fixed something back then. Lately I'm noticing I remain having some unsolved issues. I hope SI will never come again. It's horrible to have to think like that. We as individuals are too valuable for that.