I have noticed that.

Maybe?

One time I did have the automatic writing thing while manic, I forget what that's called. That was scary. I couldn't stop it. But that was during my super manic display at the pdoc's and in her waiting room that got me the BP 1 diagnosis (not just automatic writing, there were plenty of other manic things I said/did). Literally, I could not stop writing.

But this...I don't know. And pdoc says I'm mixed.

I did always like to write, though. In high school, I wrote a lot, fiction though, short stories and such, as a hobby. It's actually strange, when I think about it. Now I have a ton more life experiences to draw upon, and I cannot create stories using any of it at all (and not just the bad life experiences, the good ones too).

The meds seemed to have zapped that creativity or maybe it's age or something else? Even off meds when I was pregnant, I couldn't be creative, not with writing and not with art. I used to draw, too. I did very good sketches of faces, still-lifes, etc, as long as it was pencil, charcoal or black ink. I never could work well with color. But that too is gone. I won a lot of prizes for my artwork in high school. It's a pity, really.