I find myself in the exact same situation.. All the friends that were true friends are either passed away or hate my guts.. about 4 maybe 5 months ago I cut everyone off to see if anyone would try to reach out.. Not a single person even bothered with a single text... My best friend passed away suddenly back at the end of last December and he was the only person who stood by me through the most messed up parts of my life.. Now he is gone and I just feel like a burden on everyone else, no one talks to me anymore... I didn't mean to bogart your thread, but I logged in to just about say the exact same thing.. I am finding being on my own and on my own terms to be liberating and yet extremely sad.. There is not a single person I know that I can relate to..