I almost completely shut down today during my session with T2. It started off okay until he asked how my session with EMDR went. I said I told EMDR T about how the behavioral health lady from my doctor's office and T2 agree that it's counterproductive to see 2 Ts at the same time. Told him that EMDR T disagrees and that's the jist of what we discussed during our session other than celebrities. T2 then started saying that he thinks the decision needs to made soon to continue with whichever T I choose. He said if him and I continue to work together that he definitely thinks I need to come in more than twice a week right now but he saus he's not sure how much more...we kind of settled on 3 while we were discussing it. He asked if I think Emdr T is helpful and if I wanted to keep seeing him...he said I coild say I wanted to keep seeing emdr T but didn't get the sense that I do. I told that after last session with EMDR T that I didn't think the session was helpful but I like the additional support during the week and I don't want to burn any bridges by ghosting Emdr T and not feeling like a crap person. He asked why do I worry about burning bridges and how previously relationships have ended for me. I said I just didn't want to burn bridges in case I ever decided to go back to him for Emdr in the future because I dont know of many Ts that accept my insurance and do emdr around. T then made a statement about differentiating social and professional relationships about how I worry about upsetting people, burning bridges etc. I couldn't think straight about how to explain it but it really comes down to worrying that if I end things with Emdr T and then T2 terminates me for some reason, then I'm left without any professional support again and would have to completely start at square 1. I was there at the beginning of the summer looking for MC and T on my own because our old MC/T left and never referred me to anyone else. I was so upset and overwhelmed at the end of the session that I SH in the car before I went home.