This divorce crap is emotionally draining. I have been trying to keep my SI in check, but when I sit down and have an honest conversation with my future ex as to why he was done with my marriage it all just goes spinning out of control again. I know logically we both were responsible for the down fall of our marriage. However, to hear the ways in which I contributed to that, just sucks. And what sucks even worse is that some of the things that he talked about was issues that stem from depression or BPD and all things that I have consistently been working on since I started therapy. It just all sucks, and I feel a pit in the bottom of my stomach and a migraine starting.. all while I have a test I am supposed to be studying for.