I wrote to him. I wrote him a letter and sent it. I don't much feel like talking about it. But I feel relieved and like its off my chest. I wasn't able to say to him outright that I had feelings for him. But I greatly alluded to it, and that was the best I could do. I wished him the best and take care and all that. I hope I did ok. I've been depressed and that may have come off in the email as wistful. I said I'd wished I'd been able to know him more and that I wanted everything to be ok with us. Regardless, I wrote it and I'm glad its off my chest.