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Originally Posted by RaineD
Ah, I can relate. A new relationship often feels intoxicating to me too. Everything is new and intriguing! It could be an interesting topic for therapy.
I told my T that I always used men like drugs. Kept them around when I could use them to get high. Tossed them aside as soon as they got boring. I intentionally quit doing that when I started therapy.
Do you feel relieved that you're no longer thinking about and yearning for your T?
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Actually it is a complete turn out. I do not thin of him at all now.
So I told him. He said "Good for you!" except I have been on a complete high. I have not been able to sleep, focus on work, studying. He questioned me if I felt I would do drugs or drive my car fast......I looked at him like a puppy with their head cocked from a high pitched noise. I do not do anything that would crash my car as i need it for my work and I an crazy about eating and working out so no drugs. I did say it was intoxicating and erotic and sure is filling a empt void i have been trying to fill all this time. He said it does the same thing as cutting. Then he goes off on to asking me what age does this part feel like when I felt that "high" come on. I did say I felt young again like a teenager. Then he said what would your best adult self say to the teenager about the situations to stay safe because I have been on the fence about giving this guy my cell # instead of chatting on that site.
He made it clear that he is not telling me what I am doing is the wrong decision as it might be the right decision but it depends on the motives behind it.