He would say that I was projecting my step dad onto him and I was really angry at my step dad and not him. That wasn't true. I call him dad over My blood father. He would say I resented him as he believed it meant jealous. For the plain fact he earned more and was perfectly healthy. I could question the second half of his claim. I feel like my breakdown has made me a better person in some ways. And if I have needed meds to get through then I believe that makes me more in touch with what my head and body need. I am fine now. Since I left him I have just got better and happier.