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This is separate but feel free to read (obviously). Today's gonna be a hard one. I have to clean out the storage with my ex. I've seen someone else since my ex left me, but that doesn't seem to matter. I still love him but he doesn't love me the same way. I don't think he ever did. I don't know what's going to happen today, probably nothing but internal screaming. I hate the fact that I'm still in love with him. With my blood on his hands, I still want to hold those same hands gently and tell him, "Everything will be okay." Ha, yeah... I'm pretty pathetic.