Many thanks to all of you for your replies here. I know where my friends are, and I do sincerely appreciate this support. Sometimes I really do struggle to feel God's love for me, because I can't imagine that I would be important enough for Him to notice or care, especially when everything seems to be going wrong. But I have felt it, and I can't deny that. The hard thing is to remember. I'm hoping to cut back a little on work for a while. I broke down when it was time for my annual evaluation on Friday, and told my supervisor that I haven't been my best in several weeks. I need some time to get going again, and it doesn't seem fair to be evaluated based on my performance while in this crisis. She'll work with me. I also thought about taking a vacation from Psych Central, but I would be lost without this community, I think. This has been an important social support center for me, and also a source of stability, for a long time. We'll see what happens. I'm still reading, although I might lay low for a while. I still need everyone here to do their best to take care of themselves and each other, respect each other, and try to keep it peaceful here. Even at my best, I could never do this alone.

TC,
Rap