Thanks guys/gals! I went to the T and she was great!! I had my BF come in with me and give her more insight than I could provide at the time because my anxiety was keeping me from talking much. I was able to calm down a bit towards the end as she was very comforting and kind.
I am going back to her next week and for the first time in a long time I feel hopeful!!!!!

I am really tired now because my anxiety was so high all day!

Thanks for everything you do and all of the suggestions.

It's ok Bebop, not everyone can think of everything all the time!

Thanks Clyde for the hugs and being proud of me.

Thanks Jazz for reminding me that it's ok to be afraid and nervous!