So you are infatuated with a teacher/coach. It is not uncommon. It will pass.

But it’s indecent of you to pursue a married man regardless how excited you are to spend time with him or how attracted you are. Common decency dictates for you to stop this.

Being new to the world of dating and relationships has nothing to do with pursuing married men. If you want to date, it’s wise to go for single people, not married. If he is leading you on, then he is not a decent man anyways so why pursue him?

I am not sure what you are really asking. I doubt anyone on here will advice you to go for a married man. We can’t stop you but we aren’t going to encourage so what exactly are you asking?

I recommend to seek therapy to figure out how to deal with it