I am just really struggling. I miss my T, but at the same time, I feel a tiny sense of freedom that I am no longer bound to that attachment. I mean I still feel heartbroken/shocked/resistant about losing her, however, it’s hard for me to beleive that our work was going anywhere.

Regardless, I miss her terribly. And I just don’t know how to connect with a T again. My connection with prev T was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Sometimes we’d both make eye contact and I felt chills with how close we felt in those moments. I told her everything. Literally everything. I don’t even know how to start with a new T. I just want old T back.