i take meds and am seeing a therapist for s.abuse...and that seems to be helping more than the meds...and i find it so hard to connect with ppl and if i do its really special...and i've connected with my thereapist in three sessions...and i trust her...its helping...the meds im not sure coz im crying a lot...and i still feel really low...but my head is clearer and i have more insight and i feel a little hope...so maybe they are working..but then they couldnt be coz it's only been a week and a half...so maybe it's therapy...either way im pretty confused right now...depression hurts so much and i hate it...and i wish i was strong enough never to have got it...but once u do it's a constant battle and fight that i want to give up on..but can't because my will to live is still strong...its just weighed down so heavily.....i have friends who care...and that pushes me on...keeps me fighting...i just want to heal and get better so badly...