I've had 5 weeks of a break from therapy due to mine and T's holidays being back to back. That's the longest break in 4 years.
Since i was away for 3 weeks having time for very indepth self-reflection there were many many moments when i wish i could talk things over with her. As time went on my resentment and anger towards her kept growing: because she wasnt there to listen, because i realised she was only there when i paid her. At the beginning of my holiday i send an email asking a few questions and asked for her to let me know if she thinks she doesn't want to answer then..i did not get any reply. It angered and upset me. I feel like i invested. all of me. Into the therapy and i can't comprehend how any relationshop can be so one sided. It feels like i only get what i put into it. Those emotions keep coming to surface more and more often. The interference of my T hurts!