I'm that way too. H says I see the negative in everything, but I don't know on certain things, it's like I can read the writing on the wall, such as his not getting hired by the university that promised him he'd have a job come fall & once it was July & nothing, I was like that's it, there's not going to be a job, and there wasn't. I knew too his mom was so bad off that the last time we visited, it would be the last time my daughter & I saw her alive (this was around 6 months prior to her death, H's family lives in California, so it's not exactly an easy visit). The way things were going, I pleaded with him to spend Christmas with his parents this year because I just knew his mom was going to die over Christmas break, and sure enough, she passed away December 28. But maybe those were situations H was too close to emotionally to see what was coming. I never told H I knew these things beforehand, but I did afterwards and then he commented about my always seeing the negative.
I am sure there are things I thought negatively about that turned out positive, but I can't for the life of me remember them.
Lately, I have enough trouble just going day to day. Some days are bad, some terrible, and some downright I don't know how I'll get through this.
Another thing to work on...just tack it onto my long list...
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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