My husband is done, he can't deal with the bipolar swings anymore. He wants out. I'm in shock and don't know what to do. He gave me an ultimatum and I blew it and self medicated with alcohol. About a month ago I was hospitalized for a total of 18 days in three facilities back to back to back. I was released feeling I was ready to begin a new chapter in my life and unfortunately I've declined to the point I.m thinking about admitting myself. I don't feel safe. I don't know where to turn.