Well I did it...I made a decision and ended it with my Emdr T. I went into session today and he said he had called and left my T2 a message but didn't hear back yet. Told me that he's okay with seeing me at the same time as T2 because insurance allows it and as long as we worked on different issues. Asked what T2 and I have discussed about it and I told him that T2 wanted me to make a decision about who to continue with and because we weren't able to do Emdr currently that I'd like to try it out with T2 only. We talked about down the line that I can always reach him and start back up again if my H moves out or a long time goes by where I actually trust H to not continue with the SA. Said he really enjoyed working with me and that I'm motivated etc etc. Also made a comment that he thinks if it weren't for my PCP getting involved then the whole thing with seeing 2 Ts probably wouldn't have been an issue. But it's done and I just feel weird now...just numb and hoping that T2 is worth this decision.