I did have a good day today and I feel ok.I am having to cope with some blocks due to my anxiety.Like when I want to get chores done I get a bit OCD about how and when I do them and in what order,I work myself up into a state about it getting anxious then I block and can't do them and just leave them and it is frustrating then cos I get impatient and want to do them straight away as quickly as possible in one go.If I didn't get anxious and was patient and not such a perfectionist I would just do them without getting in a state about it.Like tomorrow there is a sink full of dishes to wash and a green compost bin to clean a very large one,grass needs cutting,bins need putting out,cat litter needs changing and tray washing,bathroom needs cleaning.

I imagine when I will do each chore and in what order a million times the day before,should I get the grass done first or is it best to leave that and get the washing up and green bin done,I will ruminate and be anxious over and over in my mind.

My worry right now is it is 2am and I am not asleep so will I wake up and have energy and time to do the chores tomorrow?

I work myself up into a state,my home needs to be perfect,but it is cluttered and needs constant attention to be kept nice.I was brought up by perfectionist parents and extended family so if things aren't looking perfect to me I get to suffer from a lot of shame and humiliation from my inner critic.This is what I cope with on a daily basis.