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Old Sep 27, 2018, 11:49 PM
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In the unlikely event that a professional irl asks how I’m doing I usually just say “not too bad” I’ve been bitten too many times. And I’m not exaggerating. Why share something scary only to be shamed or worse. but I live in a sub optimal area for mh “services” we are “trained” to feel “less than” and “undeserving” at best. . Everyone else but me deserves help
I think form seeing what others say, and I can definitely say this about myself, we all seem to think wee're the exception. Everyone deserves love, help, and happiness...except me. For some mysterious reason I'm that one rarest person to ever exist that doesn't deserve these things.
Although half the problem is that even if people believed I needed and deserved help (you know in the event that I'm not seen as attention seeking or something) my family has so much going on we might as well be our own tiny high school. Our house is under construction, my stepdad is having surgery in a week, we have drama that encompass extended family, my mom is having trouble with my siblings....The other day she came up to me and said it was funny that the child with schizophrenia is the one causing the least amount of problems. So I don't believe anyone would take me seriously and even if I thought they would, it's a really bad time to be bringing this stuff up.
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