Waking up this morning from our mother retrieval expedition yesterday....it’s more obvious of the conflict in thoughts from everyone with differing opinion, more than usual because this IS life changing.

It’s hard living this way with purpose, loads of doubt, fears, excitement, positivity, negativity: all at once in most everything one does. It mixes in a twisted way and I swear our chest aches when the differing emotions and feelings get strong and intense.

I don’t know what to do about it... a constant battle in mind and spirit over almost every single event, situation, decision, purpose, desires....

A lot of times we just do nothing, or after something is done...once again here comes a wave of pride, resentment, horror, shock, happiness, grief, excitement....

I swear that we are going to die with a heart attack- the strain and stress over mixed emotions, feelings, ideas and thoughts are too much at times from a diversity of personalities...

We negotiate often, let some simmer and stew, ignore the ridiculous, compromise, comfort the hurting...

What else can one do with a group of strong willed individuals?

Thoughts and experiences?