I'm sorry TheLonelyChemist. You shouldn't have had to put up with that ****.

Thanks, Bill.

I'm trying to work through some things right now. The violent images in my head are still present. My urge to SH is definitely still here. More than anything, I can't bring myself to stop my self-destructive thoughts. I keep seeing something very specific and I can't talk about it on here in detail but it involves suicide. I keep seeing it, I keep seeing myself doing it and I can't seem to stop it. Is this what I'm meant to do?