I like this test. I try and be as honest as possible. I feel much better than when I took the first test!

I am diagnosed with Bi-polar mostly depressive these days. Today I am feeling more upbeat because I had started putting Boundaries down To My Mother (possible NPD) My Sister, (possible borderline) at during the start of the last test. These have played out and I do feel better...

I told My Mother My feelings in a nice Letter in an email describing how I Feel Now. I know that She just expects that I will do whatever she wants. Normally I just go along with her wants/needs and let her have her way. I have not heard from her since I wrote the email...I am not worried about that like I would have been before. Much of that email concerned New stories My Sister has started about me. [(she thinks I am putting spells on her, Telling HER secrets that she is sure I told Our Brother, ( haven't talked to him in 5 years: headscratch going into her House, upstairs and planting items, (I don't' even have a key) Hacking her phone,)]

I decided after I had helped her get in a new place to live by borrowing her enough money to pay her deposit and first months rent. That I was going to go "NO contact" with her and I did! She was BULLYING ME and putting me down trying to make herself appear so perfect...I was getting Flashbacks from My PTSD.

Mom was soliciting a trip to go visit relatives that I haven't seen before. I really did want to go. Mom said that My Sister was going to go also take it or leave it. I agreed to go and said, " I said I was NOT going to have a nervous breakdown over Sister's antics again.".

She replied and said "I was using that as an excuse! but as I started thinking about it I realized that as a uNPD that, of course, she has no feelings so going into treatment was a weakness to HER! I defended My Self in the email and said: "I guess being kind, honest, and soft is a bad thing." At that time I also told her I did not want to go with them. I didn't think I could walk on eggshells with Sis.

Backstory

Between 2010-12 I went into day patient treatment for severe depression two times... Most of that was caused by My Sister and HER NPD "Besty" Who was spreading preposterous rumors about me. uNPD BESTY was also telling lies about me to My Sis. That My Sister believed. MOM was also treating me like a child ordering me around and expecting me to act like I always did kowtowing to her needs and wants.

So, I do feel better Having said My peace to My Mother telling her My feelings and side of the story. I went "no contact" with My Sister. My MOM probably went "No Contact" with me and I am OK with that!

I have also been working with My "Inner Child" again. Trying to root out some of the "old Child feelings, putting them into perspective as an adult, and soothing My POOR Inner Child.

Amazing ALL of these things combined raised MY score 42

I am new to this forum and If this is NOT the right place to post it I am sorry and I figure that a Moderator will move it to where it belongs! I have looked at All of the title headings and I am not sure where to post it!

Thanks All and comments welcome!