I feel like that a lot. I have also been in inpatient about 5 times in the past 4 years. Every time I leave i have a small hopefulness that everything will be ok. The people in the hospital make it sound like everyone out there will be helpful and understanding. But as you know not everyone is. But there are people out there who really do care and who really want to help. Sometimes it just takes a little while to find the right one. Keep your head up!! I know it is frustrating and overwhelming, but keep trying and hopefully you will find the right doctor that you feel comfortable around and who understands you. Hope this helps.

feel better. you are in my thoughts!!!!!