something snapped ... not in a bad way at all ... to put it bluntly it just doesn't matter anymore ... job . family and life it's self ... just doesn't matter ...

I can't explain it ... just one moment my normal nervous self .. then ... nothing ... just like a rubber band snapping ...

I do not feel sad ... or scared ... or happy or any da** thing ... it just doesn't matter ...

at this moment ( and several before ) I am drowning myself in netflix and my soonkyu ...

don't know where this is leading ... maybe best ever .. maybe down fast ... just not sure ... it really just does not matter ....

I guess I should be either happy or scared silly ... but it does not matter .... not sure why I am even writing this ...

I have never felt like this before ... ever ... it really just does not matter ....

. Tigger ..


ps: no I have not had a med change in months