Well, the truth is, we can't stop you from doing what you want to do. If you are having fun there, what a couple of anonymous posters on this website think won't be able to stop you.

If you want to go dance and look at women dancing, there is no harm in that in and of itself. I would think a lesbian bar a better place than a straight casino. I think using excessive alcohol in order to allow yourself to do it is a bad idea. But what I think has no reason to matter to you nor any bearing upon your actions.

I have friends who came out in their 40s and 50s and 60s. I don't think it is easy to do, but I also don't see that it has to be self destructive and reckless. I also think living a lie is harder.